I cannot settle for feeling weak, for feeling the inadequacy of giving in, whatever. Instead the more positive mindset must include the following: This is going to be the happiest time of my life. This is pregame for the biggest learning experience thus far. I am focusing on simply surrounding myself with the people I care about immensely and doing things I enjoy most. Including trying new things, even if with old people. Newness will come all too soon. My time should not be taken for granted. Life is what I make of it, or rather what I do with what is given me. I am responsible for it. Wow how repetitious it seems, how often those words come back to haunt me, with greatest ease. There is a time for everything. It’s time to have some fun. Be young, be open to learning but also to enjoying comfort, security, and joy at the fullest extent possible, which is so beyond my spectrum of thinking. And I happen to love that.
Pain and suffering are not for the present. Facing fears and doubts are important, but tiresome is the stab of reality. Ouch. So, “don’t worry, be happy” must fuel everything. “There is a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance..” Time to be in love with life again. To love and be loved. Nothing over the top, just letting go in order to be as happy as possible.
Support of this cause would be appreciated. It does not take much. Funny, it’s actually the more natural thing to do in this instance. Happy is the girl who drops the arduous weight of insecurity, and enjoys living a thing called life.